in a purely physical sense I miss him
sometimes I just want to be with him
but I got a better offer and that's forgiveness
and not even for him would I want to miss this
cuz its not worth all the lies he told me
it's not even worth the times he'd hold me
because that was just the old me
that person's dead and cold, see
I found a love that's worth more than homies
I found the God that won't disown me
and he won't leave me lonely
no reason to sigh and regret life
ain't gotta sip away my past strife
when God looks at me all he sees is Christ
and I'm afraid that I shouldn't say this
because I know that I can't repay him
I'm still weak and I'm gonna sin
the flesh tears at me from within
I can't win apart from him who died for my sin
but I have an advocate with the father
and he always pleads for his daughter
got the greatest lawyer on my side
you know another lawyer that has died
so he could win a guilty party's trial?
but you ain't never gonna find one
never gon' find a God who gave his son
won't be anyone whose sacrifice won
the fate of even just one, someone
shoulda told em to put down their guns
and trust the one who left none
in the balance, undone. he already won!
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i let you see me, but you don't know me
and those who know me can't come in
i let you see me, but you don't know me
you can be my anonymous friend
i'd like to take this ring off my finger
and let you know my heart within
but i've learned by falling down
that there's no reason to climb again
i've found that strangers are often kinder
than my very closest friends
or at least they have less power
to hurt me in the end
I actually wrote this 2 years ago and never published it. I reread it and happen to still like it, so I published it so all of my nonexistent readers can view it :P
you tell me to feel, tell me be real
let the tears fall, let you see all
you want the truth, i don't know it
you want me to feel, i can't show it
you push me to run, you want me undone
but my house of cards can't withstand
these winds on this foundation of sand
why you wanna see me broken?
there's a reason these words are unspoken
you really want to open the flood gates?
you think you're ready for the big waves?
you gonna hold my hand as the water rises?
really wanna know what the reason why i'm high is?
well if you're going to take the floor out
from under me, you better understand me
and stand behind me, beside me, ready to
find me, to hide me when the demons come
to define me, to remind me that i am loved
don't leave me, please, redeem me!
I have so many bruises and so many scars
I've been beaten so hard. I've fallen so far
Regret and shame, they are my middle names
Living life like it's just a game
I can't win, stuck and bound by sin
My life's a roller coaster, my life's a circle track
Up and down, round and round, now I'm back
Where I started. Let me off this ride
Give me an end in sight so I can have some peace tonight
el sol baja, la luna sube
y se cierran mi ojos
en sueños te tuve
pero al almancer
veo que era mi mente
que me dijo que tu estabas presente
la mariposa me eligió
en mi alma la siento
este milagro se realizó
por nuestro delito
¿que harás cuando sepas
que un milagro nos tocó?
