rooftop harmonies

i let you see me, but you don't know me
and those who know me can't come in
i let you see me, but you don't know me
you can be my anonymous friend
i'd like to take this ring off my finger
and let you know my heart within
but i've learned by falling down
that there's no reason to climb again
i've found that strangers are often kinder
than my very closest friends
or at least they have less power
to hurt me in the end

I actually wrote this 2 years ago and never published it. I reread it and happen to still like it, so I published it so all of my nonexistent readers can view it :P

you tell me to feel, tell me be real
let the tears fall, let you see all
you want the truth, i don't know it
you want me to feel, i can't show it
you push me to run, you want me undone
but my house of cards can't withstand
these winds on this foundation of sand

why you wanna see me broken?
there's a reason these words are unspoken
you really want to open the flood gates?
you think you're ready for the big waves?
you gonna hold my hand as the water rises?
really wanna know what the reason why i'm high is?

well if you're going to take the floor out
from under me, you better understand me
and stand behind me, beside me, ready to
find me, to hide me when the demons come
to define me, to remind me that i am loved
don't leave me, please, redeem me!

I have so many bruises and so many scars
I've been beaten so hard. I've fallen so far
Regret and shame, they are my middle names
Living life like it's just a game
I can't win, stuck and bound by sin
My life's a roller coaster, my life's a circle track
Up and down, round and round, now I'm back
Where I started. Let me off this ride
Give me an end in sight so I can have some peace tonight