i'm restless tonight
there's an ache in my soul.
i'm tired tonight
i just don't feel quite whole.
i'm sighing tonight
like i've lost all control.
i'm unfinished tonight
like a story untold.

something's missing.
there has got to be more...

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Monday, October 18, 2010 Posted in | , , , , | 0 Comments »

The sky has been crying angrily for two days now
And we are drowning in his tears.

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Friday, September 24, 2010 Posted in | , | 0 Comments »

I don't believe there are any exceptions,
but I sure wish somebody would prove me wrong.
C'mon! Show me! Yeah, that IS a challenge!

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010 Posted in | , , , , , , | 0 Comments »

He kissed me on the shoulder once. I'll never forget that kiss. It was my favorite because in that moment I felt loved.

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Tuesday, August 31, 2010 Posted in | , | 0 Comments »

I can't forget the words you said
They keep reverberating in my head
So you think I'm glowing with desire
That glow's just the coals from the last man fire
And if that's all you wanted me for
Well then, let me show you to the door
Or at least if I heard you apologize
Or saw a little sadness in your eyes
But your side of the line is silent
And I'm starting to feel a little violent
I knew it was a mistake to ever trust a man
I should have learned that I never can

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Monday, August 9, 2010 Posted in | , , , , , | 1 Comments »

No sabes cuanto yo, a veces, 
quiero sentarme contigo 
y conversar, como antés.

Eras mi mejor amigo
y pensé que me entendias;
que me conocías.

No puedo negar el vacío 
que dejaste en mi.

No puedo evitar 
pensar en ti cada día 
y soñar contigo cada noche.

Me matas, aún ahora. 
Me arrepiento, no sabes cuanto,
de haberme enamorado de ti.

Te veo y trato de esconder el dolor,
pero no soy tan fuerte
para olvidarte. 

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Sunday, July 11, 2010 Posted in | , , | 0 Comments »

i'm so tired of trying
i put this black ring on my finger
cuz i'm tired of lying
around, sitting here waiting
for someone to fly in
and sweep me off my feet
this life is not a fairy tale
and it's not fair as far as I can tell
cuz it's the ones who gave me hell
who are living the life I wanted, well
the life i think i wanted
or thought, because this life is not
what i thought it would be
now is time to wake up and see
that there's no such things as
happily ever after endings

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the place where my sideview mirror should be and
the dastardly cones who stole him from me

Every morning, as I cling to my coffee
I look for you, but you're not there.
I really miss you. I need you back.

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Thursday, July 1, 2010 Posted in | , | 0 Comments »

there is no hope.
no one is happy.
why life? why me?
how much longer will it last?
everyone is lying.
alone is the only way
to travel this road.
even hand in hand
we are all alone.
i'm sorry...

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Friday, June 4, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

you taught me how to drive on snow 
and that there's no reason to rush all the time. 
for that i thank you.
you were my best friend. 
for that i miss you.
you broke my heart. 
for that i want to forget you.
you were the first, 
and for that i will never be able to.

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Monday, May 24, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

hace poco que nos conocimos
pero dejaste tus huellas.
mi celuar se queda quieto
y duermo temprano en silencio,
pero pienso en ti.
quisiera hablarte ahora
y despertarme con sueño.

me pregunto en la oscuridad,
"si yo pienso en ti,
¿estarás tu pensando en mi?"
yo no estuve enamorada
y no pienso en enamorarme,
pero me falta algo
que ya no suena mi telefono.

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Thursday, May 13, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

nothing leaves my head
the noise of all my memories
is maddening, deafening
every lyric, every rhyme
"How come I'm always there for you
and you're never there for me?
How come I'm always empty?"
i see me sitting at the lunch table
"Invisible. Likeable, but not liked."
a-a-a-annnd it skips a beat
then i'm "At the end of my rope
and somebody greased it.
L-l-l-life's not fair..."
step forward then step back
and it's getting harder "to go out on a limb
to put myself up for scrutinization
and if I thought that this was hard before
I didn't know what it was like
to stand empty handed at the door
and to have no one answer me."
and and and "it would be ok now
if we both just could have cried..."
if we both just could have cried!
but i cried, alone. alone. alone-
the memories. all alone together.
but "This is my life. This is my story.
This is my song. This is my glory."
so "I tried so hard and fell so far.
In the end it doesn't even matter."
and the memories never leave
they never let go. "Just let me go
Nobody has to know.
I'm halfway gone; just let me go."
years have passed and these words
"These words are my own,
From my heart flow." they never


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Friday, April 30, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

i hate the way it burns my throat
i hate when it comes back the most
i hate the way i swallow hard
i hate that i let down my guard
i hate my body in a pile on the floor
i hate the fact that i crawl back for more
i hate the memories it brings to mind
i hate how it won't erase the tears i've cried
i hate my head over the garbage can
i hate the fact that my legs won't stand
i hate the pain that fills my head
i hate not knowing how i got to bed
i hate the texts that i send to friends
i hate the moment that this has to end
that's why tomorrow i'll do it again

FYI: I'm not actually an alcoholic! lol

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Thursday, April 29, 2010 Posted in | , , , , , | 0 Comments »

like a slap in the face
you put me in my place
got me sitting here like a kid
thinkin bout what i did
you got me to quit talking
people would say that's shocking
i just don't know what to do now

i think i've met my match!

then right after I wrote this I locked my keys in the car and myself out of the house. People putting me in my place gets me all flustered. It's just that it doesn't happen very much. Nobody tells me what to do! That's cuz I'm never out of line. Ugh. How am I gonna get my keys?

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Thursday, April 22, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

They always say, "I didn't want it to end like this." Does that mean they did want it to end?

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Wednesday, April 21, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

When the rain comes pouring down
It reminds me of a song--
One that fills my memory
So I want to sing along.
Not because I love it,
But because the melody's so strong

Memories flood my mind
And the tears fall like the rain,
As much for the joys of life
As for the scars and pain.
Those tears wash away the stains
When the rain comes pouring down.

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Saturday, April 3, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

Don't be afraid to go
Be more afraid to stay
When you fail to choose your path
There's only one way

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Wednesday, March 31, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

I missed crying with you
I wanted to watch it die with you
There was never any ending
And we never said goodbye
I never knew how you felt
I never saw beyond your pride
And I think I would be ok now
If we both just could have cried

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Monday, March 29, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

spring is in the air
it's in the melting snow
and the flooding river banks
it's on its way, i know

i went out for a walk
with just my jacket on,
my ipod in my ears
and i was singin' a song

oh, spring is on its way
it's in windows at the shops
in the chocolate Easter eggs
and the pretty flowered tops

woke up with the sun today
and it wasn't nine o'clock
and under his warm rays
the birds began to talk

yes, spring is comin' 'round
and it's time to think ahead
to the tilling of the ground
and how to make the Easter spread

so i packed away my boots
and my mittens and my hats
and i found my umbrella
and my flip-flops and my flats

'cause spring is in the air
it's in the winds that blow
and the sunshine's warm repair
that makes the winter go

Picture was found on a random myspace thread. I cannot account for its origin. I did a google images search for "spring." I will probably get a virus just for looking at it...

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Sunday, March 21, 2010 Posted in | | 2 Comments »

Why does it still hurt? 
Why do I still miss you?
How is this possible?
When will this go away?
How does this nightmare end?
Why did I do it to myself?
How many tears can one person cry?
When is it over?
Tell me.

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Thursday, March 11, 2010 Posted in | | 0 Comments »

"who are you?" I said to the mirror
"are you beautiful; are you lovely?
will you ever be loved?"

"who are you?" I said to that girl
"where are you going?"
and I didn't recognize her

then that girl looked at me
and, with tears in her eyes,
she replied "I don't know."

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Sunday, February 28, 2010 Posted in | | 1 Comments »

it's days like today 
that make me want to drink
it's days like today 
that make me start to think
that i can't take one more
day like today

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Thursday, February 25, 2010 Posted in | | 1 Comments »

this picture is from... the internet!

it hurts to forgive
and it hurts to be nice
girls are not always
sugar and spice 
(pretty much not ever, really)

i want to let go
and i want to move on
but i want you to hurt
for all that you've done 
(haha, i will crush you!!!) <<insert japanese accent here

it's not all your fault
i take the blame too
but it's hard to remember
it was more than just you 
(it was like, 97% you, 2% me, and 1% other)

i long to break free
for this all to be over
i'd like to crush your memory
under a big bulldozer 
(that rhymes with over... um, sort of)

but it's not that easy
it's just a little bit harder
than climbing a mountain
it's a good thing i'm smarter 
(than you, hee hee)

so i raise my glass
"cheers!" to this year
here's to knowing my future
is already here! 
(he's just kinda, waiting at the door, though. you know, he's kinda shy like that. he's not all about just bursting in or whatever...)

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Tuesday, February 16, 2010 Posted in | , , | 1 Comments »

I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
It feels like it's been a long time,
But come what May.

Ashamed to say I'm afraid to go
And more afraid to stay.
I'd like to know right now what to do,
But come what May.

Butterflies dance on the inside
But outside I can't give it away.
Or is that just what I should do?
Augh... come what May.

I can't sleep through the nights that pass,
And I can't wait for the day
When at last to see your face again.
Come what May!

I'm so ready for spring to bloom
And for the sun to send his rays.
But I'm even more ready to hear your voice.
You come in May! :)

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Wednesday, February 10, 2010 Posted in | , | 0 Comments »

with every day that goes by
i see the reason why
i'm the lucky one

and as the memories die
it's not as hard to try
to forget you

but when i close my eyes
and the daylight flies
you haunt me

when my dreams take flight
deep into the night
i see your face

and come morning light
no matter how hard i fight
i think of you

so all through the day
i pray to forget your face
and your memory

but when the light has gone
right until the dawn
we are one, again

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Saturday, February 6, 2010 Posted in | , , | 1 Comments »

What once was fresh and crisp and white
Is now lumped and grey and dirty.
Winter came with all his glory and awe
But as usual, he just stayed too long
Like the once-novel house guest
Who eventually cleans out your refrigerator,
Along with your wallet and your patience.

Winter, who in November, made his first lovely appearance
And in December, made Christmas magical,
Had the audacity to make January insufferable,
And the brazen nerve to make February unbearable.
To him I say, "That's enough!
It is time to leave our fair home!
Let ol' Punxatawny Phil see no shadow
And be gone, post haste!"

So who ever said poetry has to rhyme? I dunno, maybe this is prose, but I'm not creative enough right now to rhyme everything! I blame that on winter, too... :S

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Tuesday, February 2, 2010 Posted in | | 1 Comments »

The words floated softly to my ears.

"My hands, don't wanna start again.
My hands, no they don't wanna understand..."

And I was looking into a mirror.

"...They don't wanna be without your hands,
And they will not let me go, no they will not let me go."

Your hands--the ones that held my heart--
Now hold a wedding ring.
And just like the song says, 
I go days without crying,
I don't see you everywhere,
And I can say your name easily.

But your hands...

Your hands are still breaking my heart.

photo from istock.com. Song My Hands by Leona Lewis.

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Friday, January 29, 2010 Posted in | , , | 0 Comments »

tiny hands and tiny feet
the tiny smile i love to greet
big brown eyes and big loud cries
i'd like to think you're missing me

the distance really isn't far
but, baby, there's no gas in my car
the world turns round, goes up and down
and your picture on the wall breaks my heart

a little laugh and a little cry
a little tear as the days go by
don't worry now, i'll come somehow
and you'll wipe my tears away

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blank slate
and empty pages
open the floodgate
it's been waiting for ages

deep down
been there all along
words without a sound
harmonies without a song

rhythmic sensation
counting the timing
equals mega frustration

every try doesn't
fall inside the lines
the result is not pleasant

so don't look back,
and with colors in hand
turn the volume up.
paint a song without music.
sing a picture. 
write a feeling.
open your heart 
give every word meaning.
there's no time to lose;
for time is a gift.
on the page before you
show me what you've lived.

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Wednesday, January 27, 2010 Posted in | | 2 Comments »